It just me or........
Assalamualaikum. Hi everyone. Hmmm just wondering, have you ever felt you're totally nothing? Yeah nothing. Not for someone special or people around you, but even yourself. Have you? Me? Always. Haha
Ummm sometimes I wonder, why am I worried about others when they don't even think about me? But then, I thought sometimes we need to be hurt in order to grow. We must lose in order to gain. Sometimes, lessons are learned best through the pain. Am I right? But sometimes, I hate it when i tell everyone I'm okay but deep inside I'm not. Why? Because I like to pretend that everything’s alright. Cause when everybody else thinks you’re fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you’re not. Sometimes it's easier to pretend you're happy rather than explain why you're not.
And, when I'm alone, I overthink. And why do I talk about this? Umm I dont know. Just, I dont have someone to talk to. Ya Allah, tears please dont come out. I'm tired of fighting, I want to be fought for. I'm tired of caring, I want to be cared for. I'm tired of being just me, I wanna be yours. Do you know that? Yes. Don’t expect someone to stay sweet forever because even the sweetest candy has an expiration date. But, I miss the old you.
I'm not looking for someone who has everything. I'm simply looking for someone who sacrifice their time & spend it with me. Yeah, I still remember this "If someone wants you in their life, they'll put you there. You shouldn't have to fight for a spot." Well, people keep telling me, never get too attached to someone, because attachments lead to expectations and expectations lead to disappointments. But for me, life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life. Don't you think so?
It's sad when you realize you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were.
I miss you. No, let me correct that, I miss the old you. I miss the old you that cared about me and the old you that would treat me so well. Sometimes you just gotta accept that some people can only be in your heart, not in your life. Arghhh! I hate acting like I don't care when it's really tearing me up inside. Does it bother me? Yes. Will I ever tell you? No.
My problem is I can't stay mad. I always end up forgiving people, even when they don't deserve it. Yes, I'm upset. It could be because I thought I actually meant something to you, I thought you cared. But I was wrong. I want you to fight for me and to show me that I'm not a joke to you. Honestly, I don't need someone who sees the good in me. I need someone who sees the bad in me and still wants me. Well ummm forgive me for my wrong-doings. Forgive me for the ignorance. Forgive me for the neglection. Forgive me for everything. Iloveyou. I'll always do. Iloveyou. Byee.
No girl wants to be with a guy that can't let other girls know he's taken.
